Your post shows why you will never attain what you claim to seek.
You're just another turnipfarmer driven by base desires wanting to fuck something non human on between silk sheets
how I fear for your neighbors livestock.
No you will never join us at our mountainous heights thinking that all we do is horde baubles in ivory towers.
I've spent the last thirteen years on the mastery of Alchemy just to brew a specific decoction to push my progress in geomancy beyond the natural limits to create lenses and spheres of unearthly clarity to grant me sight beyond the definition of sight as I gaze through the veil of the KOSM!