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Does anyone ever constantly end up with having a "blank mind"?
Like 90% of the time my mind is just blank, which makes it extremely difficult to have a meaniful conversation and I usually never think of what to say, I just blurt random shit which usually has no feelings or emotions behind it.
Also when I'm writing a test and I don't know the answer my mind will just be blank. If I'm in a serious conversation then my mind will be blank.
I guess I always have a confused look on my face, since ppl will usually ask if I get what they are saying. I normally don't have any trouble understanding people though..
I'm still somewhat functional, I can cook by myself, clean up, I can hold down a job (administration and I've Recieved praise) I was able to pass college ( albeit I got shit marks and ended up with a 67%average and failed like 4 courses) I can go to the store just fine and order a meal, I can have a conversation with a waitress, I can do all the regular shit a human is expected to do.
Is this a sign of depression? I've had it for almost all of my adulthood and I am currently 23. I have best friends but honestly I don't feel a deep connection. We will do stuff for one another and we hang out, but like 95% of the time we chill it's just surface conversation. If they ever ask for my opinions or my feelings, I can't articulate my thoughts and I end up coming off as cold or uninterested.
I suck at telling stories, I fumble my thoughts and usually end up oversharing information, thus making the story boring. If people are talking about past experiences I usually stay quiet because I can't think of anything, even if I've been in a similar experience.
And I jump around from hobby to hobby. One month I'll be super interested in a particular subject, then next month Ill drop that subject and focus on something else. Nothing really interests me, half the time I feel like I'm living on autopilot giving generic responses when someone tells me something.
Like 90% of the time my mind is just blank, which makes it extremely difficult to have a meaniful conversation and I usually never think of what to say, I just blurt random shit which usually has no feelings or emotions behind it.
Also when I'm writing a test and I don't know the answer my mind will just be blank. If I'm in a serious conversation then my mind will be blank.
I guess I always have a confused look on my face, since ppl will usually ask if I get what they are saying. I normally don't have any trouble understanding people though..
I'm still somewhat functional, I can cook by myself, clean up, I can hold down a job (administration and I've Recieved praise) I was able to pass college ( albeit I got shit marks and ended up with a 67%average and failed like 4 courses) I can go to the store just fine and order a meal, I can have a conversation with a waitress, I can do all the regular shit a human is expected to do.
Is this a sign of depression? I've had it for almost all of my adulthood and I am currently 23. I have best friends but honestly I don't feel a deep connection. We will do stuff for one another and we hang out, but like 95% of the time we chill it's just surface conversation. If they ever ask for my opinions or my feelings, I can't articulate my thoughts and I end up coming off as cold or uninterested.
I suck at telling stories, I fumble my thoughts and usually end up oversharing information, thus making the story boring. If people are talking about past experiences I usually stay quiet because I can't think of anything, even if I've been in a similar experience.
And I jump around from hobby to hobby. One month I'll be super interested in a particular subject, then next month Ill drop that subject and focus on something else. Nothing really interests me, half the time I feel like I'm living on autopilot giving generic responses when someone tells me something.
