>>5082159if it's any consolation you may have slightly misinterpreted my original meaning
all i was saying is you cannot control autism. it will resurface involuntarily no matter how much you try to bury it. it will shine through to some degree no matter how adapted to social interaction you become. there will always be lapses, like an uncontrollable impulse. a split second happening where you fuck everything up and you can't really do anything of your free will to stop it.
i'm not going to fold and say outbursts and stupid harmful decisions aren't part of it because that's a straight up lie, it just wasn't the main point