does anyone find perma boymode kind of cool in a way? I mean of course it's a compromise that you come to when you realize you're never going to pass but you get to be this strange third gender kind of thing. Like if you were stripped naked and put beside a cis man you would look completely different, not a girl but definitely not a boy. Sure it's not natural having to take hrt but it almost feels like some sort of sci-fi shit.