My gf has suicidal tendencies. I've been telling her that I want to marry her once I'm done with uni and we've been knowing each other for 2 years. She's on meds and sees a therapist regularly which does absolutely nothing, except numbing her even more. She doesn't put value in her life at all and wishes to kill herself before she turns 30. Last night I asked her to make her part in the relationship and she started sending me a diary she wrote about her suicide, telling me that I need to accept it and so on. I think I have fucked everything up.