Kill yourself you human trash. How does it feel to be such an abomination of a human being that you will never be loved? I feel sorry for you more than anything, your parents must have really fucked up badly. Despite feeling sorry for you, and knowing that you are not responsible for how fucked in the head you are (after all, you are simply just a product of your environment and genetics), I really do think it would be best for everyone if you were to commit suicide. You are clearly too far gone to be helped in any meaningful capacity.