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Okay, here goes, Psychotic Break 1.
>be me
>have insomnia all of my life
>have taken a range of tablets for insomnia
>they usually work for 6-18 months and then I need new ones
>on amitriptyline
>they work, but have very noticeable strange side effects
>I start sleep-walking for the first time ever, completely harmlessly though. I am also said to have started talking in my sleep
>dreams are extremely lucid and memorable
>stay on the tablets because for me, sleep is like gold
>start getting really vivid dreams that feel like they are just before I wake up in a morning
>a recurring dream starts where I dream that I get up, make breakfast, brush my teeth, leave the house and then I wake up again
>this happens like 4 times every morning. It is really exhausting
>slowly start to lose faith in reality in the morning
>start getting up in a morning and thinking I have to go to work (I am out of work atm, supporting myself with my own savings)
>start walking to work, getting halfway to somewhere and thinking "where the fuck am I going?"
>small things like this happen multiple times a day
>start waking up in the middle of day. I don't mean literally, I mean I would "wake up" consciously in the middle of an activity. Like I'd go to sleep and wake up immediately brushing my teeth in the morning. Memory loss, I guess
>start telling my family and a doctor I'm having memory/sleep problems
>simultaneously start getting paranoid that I have "outed" myself for a crime
>stop taking my tablets, now I have insomnia again and I'm going crazy at the same time
>start plotting my prison escape, taking extensive notes, downloading blueprints, etc.
>get an emergency therapist meeting which I go to because I want to profess my innocence for a crime
>they manage to talk me down and eventually I start feeling better again
>don't get hospitalised because NHS init lad
>happens like 4 more times before finally I go in for about 10 days
>don't have schizophrenia, they are blaming the meds
