"I envy those with cancer, they don't have to suffer for someone's selfishness. They live on borrowed time, that's why I envy them. Life is a never ending cycle of ball-breakers. As for my balls, you'll probably find them rolling down a slope. If you see them, give them my regards... if you're a saint, give me a hand, for I forgot how to bring them together."
What does this short paragraph I wrote make you feel like? Does it make you laugh? Cry? Confused? I need someone's feedback on my writing style and how it affects people.