I tried cocaine for the first time last night. I just wanted to know what its like and probably never do it again, sparingly like at parties and concerts at most. This is the only hard drug I have ever done or want to do.

The high was mild, i didnt actually notice too much at all, the thing is I remember it being so fucking awesome like better than anything else ive ever done, but in the moment I just felt mildly energized and a little anxious, and tingly but in a good way.

After the high started to wear off I wanted more, I felt so energized and with it. Normally Im a bit of an autist amd really lazy but with coke I was talking to girls, makimg friends with everyone amd having an awesome time. Its now the next day and I still want more. No matter what I do theres a voice in the back of my mind screaming to snort more blow.

How fucked am I?