>>5800914Ever since I was young, I've needed to be strong and take care of people. One of my earliest memories was when I was 7, and my parents were fighting. My brother was 11 at the time, and we were both outside. I was the one consoling him, because he didn't want them to get a divorce.
But then when I hit puberty, I was still the one who felt like I needed to protect and care for people, so instead of getting a massive sex-drive like a normal teenage boy, I got a massive father-drive. My body somehow even reflected this, and I started growing very masculine features at a young age. At 15, I had started growing facial hair (not beards and stuff, but just some mutton chops.. Which I immediately shaved because mutton chops are gross.), and got a good masculine face by 17, passing as 20, also because I was really tall.
My father slit his wrists when I was 16, and so I didn't hang out with my friends all too much. I usually stayed home after school, cooked, cleaned, and took care of the pets. When I did, I usually helped one friend in particular going through his breakup. He didn't handle it well, because he'd never known anything like it before. I told him to be thankful that that whore was no longer in his life, and be glad that the thorn is no longer in his side. He was actually older than me.
I chose to do peer tutoring for a semester, in a grade 8 science and math class. There was a girl, her name was Anna, and she seemed depressed. I knew that, because I've been suicidal two times before that moment. The teacher didn't notice at all.
I asked her what's wrong, and she said she didn't want to talk about it. I asked her to come outside the classroom, and I told her what I'd been through. That was enough to get her to tell me; her sister had tried to kill herself. I helped her through that hard time in her life, and I think that's one of the biggest impacts on me having a super father-drive.
So no, I'm not gay. I'm just everyones father.
