>>5871221>be me, Vancouverfag>be 19, going to university in september>hanging out with my friends Eric and Jakob at Eric's place>Eric's little sister Jessica is there (she's 3 years younger than me), have had a bit of a crush on her for some time>get to know her better over time>find out she's an amazing artist, we get along well, and share many interests>whenever my friends and I are hanging out at Eric's place, she is pretty handsy with me, and she cuddles up to me and draws cute pictures on my arms>have never been attracted to a girl and also liked her personality>every second I spend with her, I'm happier than I've been in years>as soon as we're apart, I feel like garbage and want to die>i actually care about her wellbeing, and care about what she has to say>not like normal where I try to be supportive of my friends because I know I should, and I try to listen because it's polite>I actually want to hear what she has to say, and want her to be happy and healthy even if it means I need to put in lots of work to help her>find out she's moving to Calgary (far away) at the end of summerWhat do I do, anons? I used to feel like I was in an emotionless haze. I could get happy, or sad, but I couldn't ever cry even if I tried to. Now, at the thought of Jessica not being in my life, I cry for an hour in the bathtub every morning. The worst part is that she doesn't know I feel this way at all, and neither does anyone else. My friend Jakob also seems to have some kind of connection with Jessica. Maybe they're not quite the same as her and I, but there's something. What do I do? Do I talk to Jakob privately? What do I say to Eric? How do I get Jessica to stay in my life? Even if it was just on Skype, it'd be something.
HELP!
