Hey /bant/, so basically I met my psychiatrist for the first time around 8 days ago and I was assigned to take antidepressant everyday but I only took one once (1/4 to be exact since I'm still on "trial") and basically here the pros and cons.

Pros
>It only blocks my thinking, like when I took it, I can't be sad, can't think, can't get angry basically cannot express my emotions/feelings properly for as long the medicine is inside of my body (basically me being a robot without any emotions whatsoever)

Cons
>It also fucks up my body, as in my sleeping schedule, constipation (this is so far I can think and see for now)

And right now I'm feeling shitty and hit rock bottom since I failed my job training which I spend most of my money to buy the outfit, fixing my shoes and now I basically have 0 on my wallet and its just makes me felt like I have no idea what to do anymore. Should I take it or not?