hello /bant/
I am 26 years old
male
never had girlfriend
never held hands with other female other than my mother grandmother and sister
never kissed a girl, but a guy spitted into my mouth while I was standing by a window talking to my friends and this guy tried to spit out the window I was standing next to. He spited into my mouth accidently and that is how I got my first kiss.
I had many girls who had crush on me but being a young autist I had no idea what to do so I just ran away
when I got older I was afraid to make a move on any girl I was in with close relationship even we went on dates I just could not make a step forward to be a couple. This caused all my female friends to date with other guys and now they forgot I have even existed.
Some girl flashed their vagina or bobbs for me even one of my female friend changed clothes in front of me and tried to seducde and grabbed my dick and my balls multiple times, but I was just confused and retarded and had no idea how to react to this so I just asked please dont grab my dick anymore. Now I am 26 in in collage where 90% is male and the rest is 9% 1/10 women and the rest 1% is whores who only date with chads
Bceause I was faling subjects at university I lost contact all my friends I know. Now I know nobody in my class and I could not care less about them because half of them will just repeat the same subject because failing the final exams
I feel lonely every day even if there are thousands of people around. I haven talked to anybody in months other than my family members and the cute girl at mcdonalds.
Now reflecting back at my life I am angry at my young self being this autistic I could have banged 3 women from 17 to 19, but now I got into anime and I usually get enjoyment by gayposting thr shit out of /bant/
dont be me anons
there is still hope for you but there is no hope for me