>>6293376I've been through a lot since I turned 18. Almost as soon as I did, my father wanted me to get a job (I did), but I had a breakdown because I wanted to continue going through school and getting a degree. I pursued that, and when my grandfather passed, my father promised to pay for my student loans so I could complete my degree.
He died in 2015. He was the sixth one of my immediate family members to die from cancer in the four years prior. My dog passed that summer before he did. I was there in the room when they put her to sleep. After my father passed, my mother ran into the arms of another man who poisoned her mind. She began to have paranoid, psychotic delusions and eventually believed that I was stealing things out of the home to pay for a drug habit. (I never stole a damn thing. If I wanted to buy some weed, I made the money honestly or by selling some of my own possessions.)
She also told me I'd have to foot my student loan bill.
I left home to move 3000 miles away, with a friend who ended up booting me out after a week because she didn't clear it with the landlord prior to me coming. I asked my mother if I could come home.
She refused to even speak to me. My special needs brother is the one who picked up the phone."Not this home" is what she told me. That fucked me up. I told my brother I was just going to kill myself and hung up.
Eventually, she did let me return home. The accusations of theft continued, this man was still involved in her life, despite my repeated warnings about this man and everyone else around her telling her to leave him.
She didn't listen to any of it. Eventually, I ended up leaving home, and taking my brother out of the situation (She was abusing his benefit money, and abusing him mentally and emotionally.)
I now live on my own, and it's a daily struggle to stay sane. I have a job that I absolutely hate, and I barely make enough money to pay my bills, but I'm surviving.
