Tell your sadist tale
>be me
>be 14
>sees live of life
>she playfully pokes my back
>have her for class
>someone points out I have a crush on her (I didn't tell anyone so I have no idea how they even knew)
>make eye contact
>skip yrs
>senior yr
>she admits she likes me
>be fucktard
>don't pursue relationship
>skip more years
>be 23
>still want her and no one else
>she's probably a slut now
>Lost my chance

I feel fucked up. 8 years and I still can't get over her. Statistically speaking, only about 12ish percent of females from ages 20-24 are virgins.

I refuse to be some cuck. I'd rather die alone. This culture doesn't value loyalty. It's no wonder most marriages fail.

I would like to talk to her again but the idea of her not being a virgin breaks me. Btw, I've had 10/10 girls flirt with me but I stayed away from relationships because I can't get over her. I CAN lose it basically when I want to (not trying to sound conceited) but I only want to be with her.

What do I do? Don't say get over her because I can't. I tried.