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>dad was an alcoholic heroin addict since before I was born
>mom was dumb enough to fall in love with him and marry/breed with him
>family on both my mom's and dad's side gave up on all 3 of us because dad was an addict
>dad spent most of my life attempting to get clean, relapsing, going to rehab, then getting out and repeating the cycle
>mom was genetically defective so I was an only child
>mom spent 50-60h a week at work while dad was blackout drunk or in rehab or at work
>I grew up as "latchkey kid" (look it up)
>started doing drugs and drinking around 13-14 years old
>was a "gifted" student, but I squandered my potential by trying to get laid and smoking weed/drinking
>got into CIA summer camp but quit because my ex gf was there as well
>graduated HS with a 3.5 GPA and scored a painfully average ~28 on the ACT; didn't qualify for any gudboiwhodindunuffinwrong scholarships
>tried doing a couple years of college on student loans; ended up getting too distracted by gf pusy so I quit
>had a perfect loyal GF but I broke up with her because of self-esteem issues (did not want to drag her into my downward spiral/thought I wasn't "good enough" for her)
>became NEET for 6 years straight, nursing alcoholic father
>mom lost her job right around the same time dad died from drinking himself to death
>been living just barely on/above the poverty line for the past 2 years
>finally got a trade apprenticeship spot; am unironically excited about making ~$10USD/hr with benefits
>drink or pop kratom or smoke weed every single day becuase I hate myself especially when I am sober
>unironically wish I wasn't born or that I had at least one (1) sibling to commiserate with
>friends from HS are starting to drift away from me because of my despondent alcoholic depressive nature
>pretty much only talk to people if I'm buying drugs from them, doing drugs with them, or getting drunk with them
>would genuinely consider killing myself except I have no life insurance
