I am going to kill myself without my fucking height surgeries in beijing that cost 50k

How the fuck can I get that kind of money?

I barely started a career and entry pay is only 15 an hr so not even after a yr of saving can I get the damn surgeries.

NO ONE will give me a loan for 50k let alone with little credit history.

So what... am I supposed to KILL MYSELF THEN?!?!?!

THE FUCKING U.S. GIVES OUT LOANS TO STUDENTS BUT DOESN'T PROVIDE A MEANS FOR ME TO GET A LOAN FOR MY DAMN SURGERIES??

You have ANY idea what being 5'5" did to my head???

I am half tempted to make a patreon haha ya as if that shit would ever work. Fuck.

FUCK ME
This is why I am an anti-christian satanist now. Fuck god. Actually,fuck the devil too. Fuck everything