I wrote this song i hope you like it

I'm sad a sad boy don't wanna be sad wanna be a happy boy but i can't but can't be happy because i'm addicted to the pain because everyday i strain struggle with the pain it's all i know it's all i feel it's all that's real everything is fake fake smils fake faces they don't care bout me cause i'm a ghost they don't know they don't see every time i go outside my chest heaves i can't breath i can't see when ever they look at me just need some warmth at night but but this hoes don't want nothing to do with me some times i just want to pull that trigger but i can't because i'm a cowered nigga don't want to be her no more don't want to hurt no more Gabriela spread your wing's and take me away but he never comes so i'm just stuck here still a sad boy but don't wanna be sad wanna be hapy