God gave me the brain that was the most obsessed in all of existence with manliness and training but he gave me the body of a boy (final height 5'5").

Why this oxymoron?

As a trial.


He oppressed me because this life is not meant to be enjoyed. It is meant to be filled with pain.


That's why I need the surgeries.

So I can break my oppression mentality/impossible to break barrier

If I can break it, I can finally move forward but it is degrading my motivation to live.

Soon it will be too late

The way I see it now, it is impossible to obtain the surgeries because something will always get in my way.

Why?

Because I am not DESTINED to be happy

So again.. I need the surgeries to break my barrier

I know most people are too stupid to get it
Let me guess?
>you create your own mentality

Bullshit. "It's all perspective" my ass. My brain is WIRED this way. Even if it weren't, you couldn't pay me enough to accept this height.

You could offer me any woman and a trillion dollars and I'd pick the surgeries 10/10 times.

>oh you again. Weren't you going to kys? Do it, you waste of space

Ya, and so what? I'll do it when I'm ready.

>there is no god

Shut the fuck up. "Me atheist der4 me smart dur hur". Fucking moron. This isn't a religion debate post.

And no I'm not a Christian. This god is a BITCH for creating me as an oxymoron.

Dominant brain with a childish body.

That.doesn't.mix.