>>6410240I'm not sure. I don't think I ever really had hallucinations when I was psychotic. I had an episode where I thought the entire Internet was talking about and making fun of me. It kind of subsided and things went back to normal. Then for years, I had times where I thought people were stalking me and just general paranoia.
Then, last year, right as 4chan was having its April Fool's, I had an episode where I again thought the entire Internet was conspiring against me and making jokes about me. It evolved into me believing that I was an AI trapped in a simulation. I wandered around busy roadsides contemplating throwing myself in front of a speeding truck to end the constant stream of bizarre and nightmarish ideas that kept flooding through my mind.
I finally got hospitalized and on medication and the problems went away. I spent months in a heavily-sedated zombie-like state and I would sleep for twelve hours a day. I have a college degree in CS, but I'm worried that I've permanently lost my intelligence and that I'll be stuck doing menial labor forever. Hopefully, I'm wrong.
