why does it look like that, every person, here and everywhere is, by our own nature, very selfish and always try to look better from others by either acting more intelligent and not participating in any kind of argumentations or by acting depressed and receiving lots of caring and attention from others who just want to help them? why are we like this and why, my love - megumin is not like that? why is she so perfect guys? why does she end up as the best person i've met in my life? why does she have to live in a world where i am not able to get into nor feel? why is life like this? should i seek help or should i just end it all? as i've read though a lot of materials, a tied up rope in a shape of a noose will let you perceive from its hole a view to an imaginative anime world that you want to be a part of and once you've done it, you will be placed in it - forver. so by this logic, it means that i have no other choices than ending myself and staying up with my only love because people, in this unfair and filled with sorrow and lies world are not the people i would like to spend my time with. that's being said, i must beg my leave at this moment and go buy a rope in my local store to finally achieve what i truly want