you ever feel like sometimes you don't have free will like not a constant lack of free will but a situational thing where your brain shuts off and autopilot kicks on and you act in a matter you usually wouldn't and when you finally become lucid again everything is fucked up and you have to live with the guilt even though it feels like you had extremely little control over the events that took place and it's kinda your fault and kinda not but from a social and legal perspective it's your fault and there's jack shit you can do to repair the damage
me neither