>>6491711>>6491716nothing else causes me this much struggle. i couldn't care less about speaking or flirting to almost any girl at all but as soon as i get any real feelings its a fucking trainwreck. self doubt, guilt, all sorts of negative nonsense bubbles up to the old brain. thing is, theres a different girl who is genuinely forward with her intentions and very clearly into me but i'm putting her on standby because the other girl i actually like and care about. so it's not just some "god i need a gf im so lonely" bullshit, its just that i actually really like this first girl and i feel like im half in and half being brushed aside.
dont want people thinking this is some lonely beta tfw no gf issues with girls, this is long standing mental trauma involving suicide and guilt with women.
ive got fat to spare anyway, its not big deal.
