I'm outside the super 8 my mom was nice enough to buy me for two weeks but I don't want to go inside because I'd rather drive off and kill myself instead.

I don't to live like this. I hate who I am. I wish I was never born. But I wish I killed myself along time.
Granted I'm just starting out, at 19. But I hate asking people for things to help me out. I believe if I want to live comfy I earn it myself. But everyone has to bother me and help me out.
What can I use in a super 8 that I can use to end it all?