I know that to many of you homosexuality seems luxurious and fun, but I asure that it is not fullfilling. You are a man. If you can, get a woman and you will feel much more rewarded. When I lied next to that “trap” thing I felt unstoppable feelings of “why am I here?” Why did I end up in this place? I just wish I had a nice girlfriend and I did not convince myself that this was what I needed. I can’t trick myself this is my girlfriend. A dirty fag will get you sick with the flu. I kept feeling my immune system getting weaker and as I kept having sex with that minstrosity of a man it became very clear that God hates fags. Bad things kept happening and I was flushed with confusion and negative thoughts. Almost as if I turned away from Gid. I knew every time that I partook in gay sex that it was unnatural and unholy. I literally had to have a spiritual awakening to undo all of the negative fag shit and rid all of the fag energy that that trap objected onto me. I had to surrender to God and tell him I am sorry for what I had done. i am currently healing from the experience and I want to share with you all thst it is not glamorous and it is not a fun lifestyle