>>688313>I just recently realized you could get hit by a car at any moment and die and so there's no reason for me not to not maximize my limited time on earth.>A life of mediocrity isn't worth living, it's not even a life it's merely a pitiful existence.Wow, you sound just like me many years ago. I was am extremely sheltered kid with helicopter parents. I too had a stage of youthful maximalism. "Live your day like your last and all that". "Be superior or don't be at all".
You want the truth? All that time I always asked myself: was I just smarter than everyone, or insane, or just had autism. And certainly, the latter seemed more realistic.
Some years later, I cringed at it so hard, I thought my face would tear apart. It felt so embarrassing, knowing that I, of all people, was just a snowflake. With all the effort, all the years wasted on some naive cashing of dreams.
But then the realization came, that I was just average, in all senses of the word. Just the most average normal guy with nothing special about him. Who did just as good as others, not more and no less. And somehow, I found strength and peace in this. And though I'm in a shitty place right now, I own it. It was my mistake, my train wreck. I know what caused it, I try to work on it.
So here's the advice. Just let your dreams be dreams. You want to be different? Don't be like a million of snowflakes chasing rainbows.
