Everytime i see her its like how do i even begin to be attracted to her. I feel like I’m obligated to date her because beggers cant be choosers. Last time I went on a date with her I felt like I just wanted her to gtfo out so I could grab a bottle of beer and cry that my ex gf is gone and I’m settling for this. But when she left idk i felt kind of bad for feeling that way, she texted me and was like “i had fun tonight you had a good time too right?” And i was like oh yeah yeah for sure while i was rolling my eyes irl. Idk if its even worth it just for the company. I have no friends otherwise.