Another day to drink my poison and be fucked up all day. Not a single thought of how disgusting I am. I've accepted my fate. Better to take my doses and just get by. The comedown sucks but the high is long. Can't believe I'm one of these people now. How far one can fall is staggering. I can't wait to hit the ground to paint it with my corpse. I hate myself and this damn addiction. It's worse than heroin and twice as addictive plus I don't pay a dime. Existence is enough but I want more of what I can't have.
I'll punish my body. Rip it to shreds. Leave no piece of myself.
Fuck you for doing this to me you absolute demon of a creature. THIS IS WHAT WE WANTED THOUGH. Now it's too late to turn back.
Take another hit and enjoy the dream future me. I'll be here to deal with your shit, comedown from your junk and remind you why you're a piece of walking garbage not worth the flesh you're made of let alone worthy to be walking even this shitty planet.
You disgust me you piece of shit. Sort yourself out.
Go ahead take another hit of that shit.
It's the only thing you have now. So fucking suffer for it. That's why this is happening to you.
You're hooked on misery.
Fuck you.

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