Hello bant
One Simple question
Why do I have to have sex?

A little bacground
Im in college now
i had gfs in highschool
kissed said gfs in highschool
never had sex with designated femoids though
largely due to the fact id usually sabatogue the relationship after a few months with racist and sexist jokes so "thots" couldnt cuck me with "tyrones"
>(Actually gave me a weird player reputation for like a month in my junioer year lol)
Ive seen tits though
and girls dont find me that unnatractive

My issue is this
i used to be really fucking autistic and awkard
im talking self blackpilled from 1st to 5th grade
and i had alottttttttttttttt of bad experiences with girls at that time
I eventually sorta just destroyed the mental possiblity of ever being loved as a sort of defense mechanism
>if you have nothing to lose you cant be hurt ect
and this sort of continued on even into my teenage years where girls started to show more interest in me and i started to understand them better

I actually understand them pretty well i think at that point
and from my POV bant
they are the most disgusting human beings (morrally) in the world

i dont really want to have sex
but (((soceity))) says i need to have sex
why cant i just maserbate play video games and work till i die then hopefully get to meet a bunch of play boy girls in hell when I die

>also i suppose this will probably turn into a gangweed general lol