>>695103i used to perceive this in that way as well but it really just fucks you up more, if you don't enjoy your life, try to somewhat work on things you would like to learn and maybe try to find better hobbies, find someone that you will be able to talk with and spend some time (psychiatrist/therapist whatever)
be positive about your future and don't forget that you can always find someone that you will maybe end up liking a lot on the internet
are you alone? do you really seek for love or some relationship? do you just hate spending your nights alone without anybody around?
if so i know that feelings very well cause i have hard time enjoy life as well but i had to stop drinking cus it only fucked me up more