>Be me
>Be 3 Months ago
>Get myself a girl, haven't felt this happy in months
>First week I'm with her i fuck her, i wanted to take it slow but she was hella freaky
>The day after i end up seeing my best mate who i hadn't seen in a while, we take ecstasy under a bridge and get blazed
>feelsgoodbro.exe
>fast forward 2 months
>She dumps me for her best mate who's just a blacker version of me
>Feelsbadbro.exe
>Started feeling lonely and all that shit again
>Start talking to new girl
>She wants to meet
>I'm down
>She meets me at my mates house and we all get baked
>Me and her cuddle, shit was cash
>Stair into her eyes, with her lying on top of me
>For a second i felt normal, like i wasn't the lonely piece of shit that i am
>Promise myself I'll love this girl like i loved the one before
>She leaves a couple hours later
>Go home and try texting her
>She doesn't reply
>All week she barely talks to me
>Friday night she calls me drunk, i can hear a guy in the background
>Saturday morning, i get up at like 7 and send her a good morning text
>She sees it but doesn't reply
>later in the day i see she's got a pic of this guy on her snapchat, with the caption "sleeping over" and then some heart emojis. Regular gay shit
>Guy looks like me, but not as retarded

Why is it like this anon? why do we put our full commitment and effort into trying to make women happy only to get nothing in return?They say it has to get worse to get better but every time it looks like its getting better it gets worse. The only way i can distract myself from the pain of living without those who I've lost is loving others. I feel like a shell of who I was. I've been hearing voices for a while anon, can anyone suggest how to cope