>>7113757It was pretty cool at times. It's getting harder to remember some of the weird things I thought.
I remember thinking that Gensokyo was a metaphor for the simulation and that youkai were just people who had become aware of the simulation and we're trying to escape. I thought that if I followed the "signs", I would be able to free myself. I kept switching personalities like I was taking on the role of different 2hus. I thought the state you were in mentally at the time of your escape would determine which 2hu you would be incarnated as when you "woke up". It was like a sorting process.
I'm pretty sure I had mania too because I had infinite energy and would walk and bike around for miles without food or water in the blazing heat, trying to solve the riddles and find an exit.
It got really dangerous. I almost got stabbed talking to homeless people in the middle of the night. I got thrown in jail for trespassing because I thought I was invisible. I almost killed myself because I thought I needed to die to wake up. It lasted for several months.
It was mostly a hellish experience because of the mania and getting myself into danger.
