>>7135029I'm not gonna go into the details, but I know I can never be with her, no matter how rich, handsome, fun or smart I became.
We're kind of "forced" (not literally, I could just go "nah" and never see her again) to stay in touch so we see each other around every 2-3 months.
It just makes it worse that I could never be with her, that I still see her every now and then and that she never acts disinterested and we get along so well, but I'm sure that having fun with her for a day and then feeling this pain for 2 weeks afterwards is better than just staying in my bed instead and feeling nothing.
And I'm usually the one who does the travelling.
And when I message her about meeting some day (doesn't happen very often), she replies 12 hours later at the the earliest even though she's on her phone all day. That's what I do when I don't really want to reply but I have to. She also doesn't remember my birthday.
