Can /bant/ help me become a normal person?

>Go out with a girl
>Get bored halfway through the date
>Do some weird gestures with my hands and walk away while she's waiting in line to get chewing gum
>Go for pizza by myself, never call her again

>Bring girl from tinder over
>We fuck
>She tries to fall asleep on my bed
>The thought of sharing my bed/duvet with someone else drives me crazy
>Wake her up
>Call her a cab and send her home

I do not have any friends to talk about this stuff with. I think people are able to realize there is something fundamentally wrong with me so they never stick around for long. I could talk about it with my online friends but most of them are incels and would think I'm posturing.

Please help me /pol/