>be me
>there’s this one girl I’ve been frequently chatting with on discord
>think I’m in love with this person
>whenever I think about them, it physically hurts my chest where my anxiety usually is located
>like I said I’m really fond of her
>know that she has personal issues
>Depression and what not
>one day she sends me a message saying she’s going to kill her self
>my heartbeat drops
>we chat back and fourth until I realize I can’t change her mind
>she tells me she’ll leave a message before she goes through with it.
>I feel a sort of relief mixed with a bitter taste of unfairness.
>keep chatting until the conversation hits an end
>I type out the words “I love you, femanon” into the inbox
>I hold for five seconds
>delete it and say I’m going to bed

Not only do I feel like utter shit, but I also feel like I’ve betrayed myself. There’s nothing I can do. I don’t know her last name or address. I have no idea what to do or where to go. I feel like I missed an opportunity.
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