hey, /bant/ I feel pretty bad about this, and I ned to get it off my chest. I don't wanna tell anyone else about this because it's just stupid

>be me
>at golf with a few kids I don't really know
>popular as fuck tho
>know everyone
>we sit down and start eating
>ask: "hey anon, who are your friends?"
>derail with who I sit with in the morning
>they can't remember
>finally say, "oh [good friend] and all them"
>"oh yeah, she's cute"
>"I used to know her before she was... weird"
>"I went to fifth grade with her, I think lol"
>don't say anything, but bring up that one of the people she bunked with on a trip hated her during that trip
Flashback to earlier this week:
>sitting with aforementioned girl, let's call her B
>B bunked with close friend, let's call her A
>A acted like an ass on trip
>B and cabin mates hated her entire trip
FF to today
>bring it up, something along the lines of, "B called A a bitch haha"
>they go off topic and start talking about B, and how she's blah blah blah or whatever

I know it wasn't that bad when I typed it out, but I just feel guilty even saying it. Bad stuff has happened to me before whenever I have talked about people behind their back. I try to stay clear of it, but I failed that today. IDK, maybe I'm autistic but A is my really good friend and I'm scared that word will get out ;-; Chances are it won't tho