I've cried like a little girl. I'm someone that gets panic attacks so I'm pretty high strung in general. I've heard people talk about the narcissistic/pschopathic/BPD stare. It's a facial expression of pure hatred or contempt or sometimes glee over whatever you're going through that people say they don't ever forget. If you haven't experienced it/seen it then it might be easy to be completely baffled by what I'm saying but if you have then you immediately understand what people mean by it. I know that it's not scientific but it does a really good job of explaining the subjective experience of really, genuinely fearing a person. I've had abusive people in my life give me a look or sometimes say something so cruel that I was actually baffled by it. It came across as bizarre. I just couldn't wrap my head around why they were acting that way. That's what I think made it so scary, that I just could not understand why I was being put through that or how to stop it. The experience is like seeing a ghost almost, like seeing a "monster". It's chilling.
