>>7415937>You only think it marked you as a failure. No it really was the turning point for me, its my fault I went in ignorant of the potential dangers but the damage that was done took years to fix.
All through my teens I had girlfriends and was popular, I was an athlete, I was top of most of my school classes and at the point I took the second dose (october, they grow at the end of the year before the ground freezes for the first time) I was already 1 year into a mechanical engineering degree where I was clearly finding it very easy despite the university social life
A few days after the trip, I walked out of university and never went back, never played any more sports, never had interest in women, didnt speak to family for 2 years etc. I ended up getting a minimum wage job at a supermarket and living in a bedsit slum for years that I shouldve been gaining academic success and fucking women. It broke me mentally and it wasnt until about 2015 that I started to feel like my old self again.
I shouldve taken at least a quarter of the dose and waited until I was in my mid 20s, our brains an d personas are still in development at 19 and stunting/diverting growth at that point can never be recovered.
The other poster saying people killed themselves I can totally believe, I probably shouldve killed myself before now too, it wouldnt even be irrational.
