>>7711894get a better goal. you gotta love yourself, love being a man. if you hate yourself to the point that you try to turn into a girl, it is part of the problem. if you feel so worthless and ugly that you think no one will ever love you as you are, it is part of the problem. and no, no one will truly love a trap. it's way worse for them, even.
most of those fugly trannies from 2010s will be in their graves in the next 10-20 years. do you hate yourself to this point? then maybe ask yourself if something else needs to be changed in your life. you deserve to feel good about yourself as you are, period.