>>7774573I guess you weren't bad at school either?
Well, ot as good as you may think, there were kids doing much better than me, but I did have...well, intersting approach on some subjects, let’s put it that way.
>so what went wrong?New educational system and High School. We were the first year to experience those changings, so I was forced to change my school, and changed to a completely foreign new area, were I finally met with reality I was no near ready for, so I was bullied pretty hard, and never recovered afterwards. Something like that, heh.
>did you demand much compared to other kids?I don’t even remember but probably demanded less, though considering that my class was full of rich children from high society, it was pretty easy.
Anyway, I always had less than other kids around, and I mean not just materialistically but also mentally.
>I didn't really expect this, that Jesus part was more of something even non-religious people assume as "correct".Well, I stiil go to church on Sundays because I was retarded enough to promise myslef that when I was still a kid. I don’t believe in God, not the christian one at least, but feel obligated to go there on Sundays.
>you work?… by your guilty tone, I felt like you didn't and lived off your parents. so… what's exactly is wrong then, why do you feel burdernsome or useless? you sound quite adequate so far, I don't quite see what's so "wrong" that you see about yourself.this one’s tough, and I’ve spent all my stamina to try answering it. I’ll just say I’ve started it recently, helps to feel less useless yes but still it’s not enough, I feel like I always miss something important.
>I have read books, because I also had family issues.Cool, which ones if not a secret? I tried Freud at a young age but then saw it’s a bullshit and dropped psychology and reading as a whole on that matter. I only read historical books sometimes.
