Gonna ramble about my life
Everyone I have met has had plans/ dreams for the future. They always want to live in a certain place, study a certain thing even get married, but not me. The future terrifies me, it always has.
Growing up my big goal in life was to not kill myself before I reach X age, surprised I made it this far if I'm honest, but now I'm older than I thought I'd live to and I have absolutely no idea what to do now. Whenever I thought of myself in the future I could never picture past 21 because it seemed impossible to get there, and now that I am almost there I still can't see anything, just a black hole. I have absolutely no desire to keep living a part from playing some video games that will come out after I'm dead
