Just realised that I don't have any frens irl, not one. My only family I have is my mother, everyone else is so distant.
I think I'm just gonna kill myself. I go to the gym every other day, eat well, cut down on alcohol and still feel miserable as sin. I think blind folding myself then jumping off a tall building is the best solution now. "Hope" is a lie, a word just to force people to keep going through hell. If I can't face jumping off some council flats I will gas myself in my car.