woke up early in the morning and made some tea
It was delicious
greeted mom and helped her with the daily chores
always have meaningful talks with mom
>www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Zbrz8ZKpuQ
out of nowhere just got hyper black pilled
realize truth is secondary to everything for everyone and there is nothing I can do about it
just stay there
stop talking
silently eat, stop talking about meaningful stuff for first time in years
notice mom is tired
can't stay, can't wake and go back to my room
If I go away mom will be alone
If I stay, my sad could stick to her and that's not good
clean table and dishes
hug mom
mom tries to cheer me up
it's useless
fake feeling relieved to make her feel good
I know she knows the truth
both sad now
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