>>7831715Still a neet but at least I'm getting back on schedule with exercise and actually taking care of myself. Went through a period of fixation with being more manly. But then I realized that...the men I were trying to be like? I had already surpassed them, to some extent. Physically, I'm on par with 30 year olds who have to constantly go to the gym, and I'm only 20. I can kick their asses without a doubt.
Now I'm looking for work online, training my body, sharpening my mind. Tomorrow I start volunteering once a week at a school for autistic kids. Maybe I'll find the answers I'm looking for there. I've given up on integrating into society, trying to be 'normal'. I'm going to build my own, eventually. I dunno how, but I will.
