I hate sex! Don't have sex! It is terrifying and bad!

I've been dating a girl and I had sex with her 4 times. She always looks like she's in severe pain when I do it, not only that but you lose control of your body and have a terrible feeling in your head. I started crying during sex by the second time. It is so bad, do not do it.

I told her no the fourth time, I said I was not in the mood. I didn't want to ever have sex again. While she always yelled "more!" and she wants sex every day. She insisted that I have sex and I just lied down on the bed that time, and she rode on me, and it felt even worse somehow. It feels so gross and painful. It feels like my penis was violated.

I wish I never had sex! Sex is overrated! It's not good at all.