Holy shit guys I'm so worthless. I'm 19 and I've never had anyone who truly cared about me. I don't have family. I don't have friends. I've lost it all. I just play bad video games and jack off to the absolute most degenerate shit all day. 90% of my "personality" is stuff I could never admit to a person in real life. I really have nothing to look forward to other than vague hopes that one day I'll stop being so fucked up, but any efforts to stop being fucked up right now fail miserably. I will never be a normal person. I will never love or be loved. I've lost.