How can i force myself to believe what i know is wrong?

So i wanted to become a Catholic to save the West,
But i Learned that the Churches Teachings on Salvation and Sexuality are of the vilest Depravity ever concieved.

The Teachings are more Evil than the “Evil“ they condem.

How can i force myself to accept these Things if i know it causes Suffering in me and my fellow human beings?

The amount of Mental Gymnastics i'm supposed to do is Unbearable!

I'm supposed to think (at all times) that my sweet Baker or my awesome Janitor deserve to be Tortured forever for no Reason at all.

How am i supposed to relate to myself and others positively?

Doesent Religion rob a human Being of it's Dignity and Humanity?