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I smoked weed for the first time in 8 years and it nearly gave me a heart attack and also it made me extremely gay for like 2 hours.
>5 minutes after smoking, don't feel anything yet except disoriented, preparing to watch anime and youtube videos
>10 minutes after smoking, remember when I had panic attacks the last time I smoked, but I'm much older and more in control now, plus I take diazepam for anxiety so I should be fine
>15 minutes after smoking, panic attack starts. I tell myself I'm fine and in control and there's nothing wrong with me, no one's ever died from weed, this is supposed to make you feel good, and the benzo should control your anxiety but it isn't working. I go to the bathroom and try to drink water. My heart races faster and faster, harder and harder. It starts to hurt. It feels like my heart is no longer controlled as an involuntary muscle but manually by my thoughts, and I keep thinking "what if it gets worse" so it does. I think oh god I'm actually going to have a heart attack and die from weed aren't I? It'll be some insane news report. I start to collapse and feel close to blacking out.
>I remember that being in a hot shower would calm me down. The heat numbs my perception of my body. I get in and try to relax. It helps a little but not enough. I need to take my mind off the inside of my body, and so I should exercise and the exertion should regulate my heartbeat.
>Just then, it's as if my soul is tangled up with the souls of two other me's from alternate realities, and these souls are being forcibly torn apart and separated. I slip through a broken plastic-wrap floor and become dormant and another me enters my body and starts taking control. The tearing causes the "panic attack" but by allowing them to separate it brings relief.
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Has anyone had an experience like this?
>5 minutes after smoking, don't feel anything yet except disoriented, preparing to watch anime and youtube videos
>10 minutes after smoking, remember when I had panic attacks the last time I smoked, but I'm much older and more in control now, plus I take diazepam for anxiety so I should be fine
>15 minutes after smoking, panic attack starts. I tell myself I'm fine and in control and there's nothing wrong with me, no one's ever died from weed, this is supposed to make you feel good, and the benzo should control your anxiety but it isn't working. I go to the bathroom and try to drink water. My heart races faster and faster, harder and harder. It starts to hurt. It feels like my heart is no longer controlled as an involuntary muscle but manually by my thoughts, and I keep thinking "what if it gets worse" so it does. I think oh god I'm actually going to have a heart attack and die from weed aren't I? It'll be some insane news report. I start to collapse and feel close to blacking out.
>I remember that being in a hot shower would calm me down. The heat numbs my perception of my body. I get in and try to relax. It helps a little but not enough. I need to take my mind off the inside of my body, and so I should exercise and the exertion should regulate my heartbeat.
>Just then, it's as if my soul is tangled up with the souls of two other me's from alternate realities, and these souls are being forcibly torn apart and separated. I slip through a broken plastic-wrap floor and become dormant and another me enters my body and starts taking control. The tearing causes the "panic attack" but by allowing them to separate it brings relief.
>[there is more]
Has anyone had an experience like this?
