So bant. How do you know when you have finally lost it. Its become painfully clear to me that I'm not a normal person, but how am I supposed to figure out just how fucked up I am. What is the reference point. I used to be able to think and process things, but now its taking me five minutes and counting just to type this with the brief moments of salience I can scrap together. My thoughts don't make any sense anymore, like my body is on auto pilot and I'm just sitting their watching. I find myself drifting during conversations only and returning minutes later finding the subject has changed and I'm still talking. What's wierder is that it comes and goes and is accompanied by physical symptoms like migraines. My family does'nt seem to think mental illness is a real thing and will look down on me if I see a doctor. Or maybe that's just because I'm paranoid, or maybe I'm just a hypochondriac, or seeking attention. How can I know?