>>8163236>what if catastrophe strikes tomorrow and your life becomes completely different?Of course but then I'll be more content because something changed and broke the madness.
>like you lose a foot or loved one?Then you keep going no matter what. I'll still be thugging it out trying to move forward.
>>8163240I remain within a profession I'm not only good at but I'm very comfortable doing. Going to work is what I'll spend 90% of my time doing. I need to be content with that.
As of right now I've achieved this. In a year or two I'll be a manager doing less work and getting paid more.
At this point I can start to build my contentment with the ones closest to me. Financial availability will be essential to build a relaxing environment to spend my time in when not at work filled with people who bring my mind to a halt. As such I've gone into finance to ensure not only will I make a lot of money but I'll also know all the places where the money hides. Thus ensuring I'll always be able to provide the finances to cultivate a relaxing place.
Lastly I'll have to become internally and externally content with myself. To do this I've slowly been socializing more, going out of my way to become more "normie" with various hobbies and social knowledge as well as mentally hardening myself to the rigors that life throws at me from self esteem and confidence issues to overwhelming social anxiety and paranoia.
Acknowledging my hang ups has been the hardest to deal with and overcome but with time I'll achieve a point where I genuinely don't hate myself anymore. After plenty of change of course. Right now is not that time but I'm getting there.
I'll be content when I can look at myself, my work, the people around me and the environment I've cultivated and relax knowing that I've built the best I can for myself and those around me I care about most.
Then I can work on what I want next.
To help other dregs realize that we can all make it IF we work at it and believe in ourselves.
